When The Time Comes

Bismillahirrahmaanarrahiim... 

Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters. 

2013 is quite a tough year for me. Even though it is just the beginning of the year, yes, I went through a lot of things sorrows and happiness, weirdness and a lot of new things such as my results, my relationship with Allah, human beings and to the surroundings. Alhamdulillah, even though I did not manage to confront everything so well, at least, I am still here able to Praise Allah the Almighty in my prayers. =) Brothers and sisters, we might never realize that we grow up and mature, we become a better Abdullah.

Subhanallah. When things become to knock on your own door, then we know and feel how the pain and happiness may lead us to become a better us. Something happened to me last night and this thing freaks me out like crazy. I know this will happen but not this fast Allah knows.  It is like seeing the storms further than hearing them. I dont really know what idiom am i using. I know I am very bad at it. 

Well, having the situation in my shoes unprepared, I had myself think for a while. Astaghfirullah. I have my parents and sisters treated not perfectly, my studies incomplete, my Quranic versions immemorized, my Tarjamah unread, my religion knowledge unfinished, my living skills undone... Ya Allah,, I have wasted so much time on earth doing nothing. =)

And in my du'as... I lost my words. I know He knows what I am facing. He knows how I feel, I just want to tell Him and ask Him for the best so that When my time comes for big decisions in my life, I can think wise and rationally to decide for myself and for my family as well.