Amazingly Special 20th Birthday

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim~ 

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh~

Kullu 'am wa ana bi khair. LOL. a wish to myself ^_^

Well. It is a very emotional day for me because I'm not having myself in a healthy condition on the last day of my teenage 'life'. =D So what I eat, what I do, where I go, whom I met are all the thoughts which cling around my mind. How can I say, I can't describe the feelings. It's indescribable. Shall I say happy birthday to myself... LOL all my life I have never wished myself my birthday. Because each and every year passed but I could never believed the age has increased a number. What a weird attitude. I should be grateful instead i know. 

To receive gifts or wishes, I just don't really mind. Turning twenty of course is a bless but unfortunately I cant face reality that I have to grow maturer than always which hardly will happen. and now omma has already been talking about my 21st birthday =( heart aching, seriously. haha. To imagine myself being serious and managing adult matters, ouh God. It is so not going to happen in the time being. So time, please be good. 

I feel odd myself. How can I say myself enjoying my "Amazingly Special 20th Birthday"... LOL.. IDK maybe I was just excited to write but then when it come's to the contents, I became unmotivated despite of how old I am now. If I was a watch, I may have rusted(unless if I'm a stainless steel... or will it just rust?? IDK whatever) If I was a book, I may appear lame and dull. If I was read thousands of times, I may torn up a little by the side. Okay. Crap. 

Also Eika suggested a prank party which I disagree totally. Huhu. Kesian Eika. Not my style of celebrating. Plus, it's a waste of time and energy and money. Well I sulked when she insisted to but sometimes I have to. Sorry dear friend. =) I dont really like harsh surprises. Later I'll catch you upp okay ^_^ And a watch and a jubah I had, I appreciate them much as much as more than my fingers. =P uncountable.

So hopefully I will become a better muslimah, with His wills, I would love to try out things I've been keeping myself to and Love more, hate less. There sure will be something else to update upon my birthday. Ouh yes Makteh has sent a cake all the way from SA to Penang. How tear bursting. LOL hyperbolic. She sent me a cake too last year. ILY mom teh. So nice of you. Actually the remembrance meant the most InsyaaAllah.. 

Allah ma'akum...