So lucky to be you~

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم..

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته ..

If we notice, we just like it to compliment pple about something they have which we do not have =) Indeed yes =) Dialogues like "You are so lucky you can..." is a common one. In my case, I take all the chance I have to make myself home every week so that I will not be alone since my roommate is not with me, and too to help my parents n sisters out, regarding their needs for the whole next week. =) pple just say "It's so lucky to be you to be home every week" and what I usually reply is just a smile... On the other hand, I have my self so stuck with my studies. -.-" screwed -.-" lol and everytime I think about it, I can preferably laugh at myself which I suppose to cry n be sorry for myself... -.-" miskiin~

Some pple, they say the "You are so lucky you can..." thing when they are jealous abt some matters. =) Yesterday I had like among the best days ever. My sisters and I enjoyed our lunch-dinner together with our best friends, my kak nani, and the twins idzlyn and idzryn... since one of the twin is furthering her studies pretty far away, so we decided to enjoy ourselves together in the valid short period... =) So we bought some food, n decided to eat beside the Kedah Perak Penang border river *y does that sounds weird??*, but since the food was pretty late served, we then decided to fold the car's sofa n just eat in the SUV. =) haha.. pretty crazy but fun. 6 girls squeezing in the SUV was awesome... haha... I wrote this so far... tersasar ald. =) Well I was trying to talk abt how the twins which are baby sisters of mine dress. Allahuakbar. Yesterday, I said to myself "It's so lucky to be like them, to dress like them". =) what I mean is, I do have my goal which I do not have enough strength to do it-to become a really lovely 'gadis pingitan'... =) which mom-in-laws to be queues up for a daughter in law.. =) ok that is hyperbolic... o.O Well, I'd really love to lower my gaze by dressing really polite Islamically. =) sure is something very hard to do. =) We sisters went to the mosque and we prayed fardhu Maghrib when I saw them praying wo their telekungs. =/ It's actually very simple n looks meaningless but very sensitive to me. I burst into tears when I look at myself. Oh, not so bad but y cannot I be like them.. Alhamdulillah they're blessed w His Hidayah at their age.

Again, some pple repeat the dialogue to pple with better job specs. =/ Last Thursday  I went to the library with a friend to discuss an assignment. I usually go to the library at nights, last semester. This semester, I become a bit lazy, even to the mosque. -.-" Ouh dear, I'm gathering my strength to make efforts to go study, n to pray at the mosque... Luckily I've got myself place at the same hostel for the next year so I can easily go there.... or not go... Pray i'll go... Aamiin~ Ok, again, the library. What I noticed was the staffs had to work over time to 'guard' the library till 10 at night. Miskiin. Seriously. Some pple just have to work hard to get  some money, but some just work very little but earns a lot. That is y education is something very important. Money never counts. Yeah, money counts but only if you want to live comfortable... It never guarantees happiness. =) Some pple just says "It's lucky you live in lux" but if the rich has got no education, the poor can just cheat the rich off and the poor will become the rich and the rich can become poor. Ouh god, Na'uthubillah...

=) Well =) The lucky feeling is actually jealousy... Wa na'uthubillah. I would rather be emotionless and  heartless than to be jealous. Complimenting will just make pple proud. They'll slowly kill the pple complimented. For instance complimenting somebody looking pretty, makes her feel so pretty wearing something n will eventually make her feel proud n try out something much prettier, n for muslims, if the much prettier dress attracts men, they're actually doing something less to Sirat almustaqim~ thats y, na'uthubillah. =) the same applies to criticizing =/ what is important is for us to be always careful with each and every word we say... so not a coherent n united explaination... -.-" sorry for that... 

beautiful inspiring red platform ;)

from : Facebook

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOVE

Assalamualaikum... It happens that today is the 46th birthday for my mom.. =) Omma, she has gone through a lot in raising us up, taking care of us and be as patient as possible. Mamaku xmudah melatah, my mom is my role model. She's my all. =) Moga Allah memberkati segala usaha2 murni yg mama lakukan,, ILY mom! Ape ye birthday present buat mama?? I gave her the sincerest kiss ever for her last night.. =) N that is y cash means nothing. Mom gave me love instead of cash. =) That made us so close together.. love you mom.. =)

عيد ميلاد سعيد يا ماما .. كل عم وأنت بخير !

When he is mad and she is mad

.. السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته ..اليوم اتكلم عن المشاعر مع الرجال والنساء  

       What a good start,, half an hour to check whether the sentence is right. I hope so. =) It just meant, Im talking about the feelings of men and women. Ok. I was just trying that out. Well. My topic is pretty general. Yeah, since i'm having myself adapting to teens life, looking for the right guy, so I guess I shall write about the emotions. It has been a while since I wrote seriously, I just hope I'm not gonna write craps. =) 

      When a woman gets angry and when a man gets angry, the situation is very different. Well, emotion is something we relate with our temper, mood and personality and not to mention hormones. So, due to some hormonal changes, woman just gets mood swings easily rather than guys- just acting cool.  This is what makes women and men so complement to each other. =) You know somehow, Allah has written everything by sequence for us, so that we can live smoothly. Yes, musibahs are things we really can't avoid from. So, when some random man and woman are having this fight, one has to be the 'water' to cool down the 'fire' which really isn't something easy to do but needs a lot of patience, tolerance, put the ego aside,  and to be considerate. To fight over small things are just not worth it. I realized (I just realized but I'm sure everybody have realized this since then) that fight gives you nothing in benefit. Zero. What you get is depressed. Also, we don't have all the time. We do never know our رزق . What if, na'uthubillah one of us are chosen to return to him. Will we not be regretting the time we should have spent together? Na'uthubillah.

       So speaking of that, all we need is a little optimistic attitude in ourselves, lower your ego level, or maybe recall how hard it took to get together with the friend. The most important thing is, when we are grateful and thankful to Allah, we have the inferiority in the eyes of Allah, insyaaAllah, things will just go smooth. Some people, they are given generosity, lovely heart, lovely lips so they persuade the other friend and such. But some are given mouth full of stone, stone hearted, not generous at all and just never persuades. o.O that is the problem na'uthubillah. So sometimes it is best to just practice istighfar - أستغفر الله العظيم - say it repeatedly, infinite loop yea...  =) I mean until u feel the calmness, until you have the gut to say sorry when u misunderstood ur friend. ;) InsyaaAllah that would be better.

       Or it should be the best to explain each other, to be honest and to be straight forward. =) and another thing is sabo je la~ ;) None of the friend should be specialized like "I'm the girl y must I apologize" or "I'm the guy so y must I apologize"..... In fact both should apologize even if the fault is only from one side. One whose fault is to make the mistake and another whose fault is to get sulky. o.O ouh dear. Throughout what I wrote, friend means the spouse. =D It's just spoiling my mood to write it because it's too mature thing to say. or even write. Geli . sorry, can't help it~

LOL. dah2. go persuade ur loved ones. 

I took this from facebook. love the gold lace. It'll sure look gorgeous and elegent. =)

Mom and Dad and Dongsaengs

It was mother's day last Sunday . Some says it is not appropriate to celebrate mother's day for SOME special day which is actually celebrated by non muslims, i'm not sure what it is. =) but well, everyday is mother's day, right. Moms are just the best one understanding us- she carries the heavy us in her womb for 9 months, she feeds the hungry us, cares about the misbehaving us, be patient with the naughty us, she just does everything for us. =) Mom just thinks about our wellness each and every breath she breathes. Ok. melalut. I was talking about mom's day just now... So yeah, be got mom an Galaxy Note II in Ruby Wine which was pretty big and which she bragged about. =) But still, she took it n uses it happily... She calls abah first.. I created her Whatsapp, and for me as well, so that we can contact more. o.O I guess... =) But well, mom did great handling her new phone.. Hope she loves it. Ouh, and dad is the main sponsor of the phone btw... =) so I had a long night helping mom out with her phone, n since my other dongsaeng bought one too, so I helped her out too... help what? IDK... It's as if im so good in it... as if.

Mom and Dad are recently having not really good health condition so I have to make my self available on weekends, insyaaAllah. =) For having them having these great tests, thanks O Allah. =) insyaaAllah they can bare everything well. But please Allah, make them super strong to face them. And to me and to my sisters as well. People can just see the happy, well being them, the staff can just see the strong and just-okay Daddy and the school can just see the talkative, advising Mom. but they can never understand how much pain they are baring... Allahuakbar.

Deah Dongsaeng has just started her pre-U in form 6 and Myah Dongsaeng is sitting for her mid-term exam. They are living it well with Allah's will. =) Eunni is praying for the best for u two. =) and Eunni is sitting for final in a month time so all the best Eunni! ;) I'm pretty much adapting to my surrounding, my studies, my friends, my friend, my timetable, my assessments, my exams, my all. =)

I dont really have ideas to talk about, later Ill write when I'm having myself on holiday. =) perhaps I can write abt my semester break activities. to work? to become the housewife again? to have myself busy with business? to bake? well... I'll write later then. What's sure is i'm gonna write during the exam week. Time tu la procrastination level tinggi kn

.. =)

and this is a sweet pinkish heel,, and is from a FB page.. =) It's not pretty but I love the colour. and I dont plan to have one... ;)

Bercintalah

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim~
Assalamualaikum n Hi there.

So I attended a talk which actually discusses about the students' 'struggles' upon graduating. =) The panel were Anwar Hadi who is a vlogger and Imam Muda Falhrul, who I did not really knew who they are. Well, the conclusion to the talk was :

Ok let me just explain in bahasa Malaysia. =) I do no know if I agree what the ustaz is saying but each and everyone has their own point of view.

Dalam sesi soal jawab, ada persoalan apakah 'rules' yang perlu diikuti sekiranya pelajar mahu bercinta (ustaz menerangkan xsalah bercinta).

Jawab ustaz : InsyaaAllah sekiranya pelajar dapat menepati 5 perkara :

~ menundukkan pandangan

~ menjaga aurat

~ tidak bersentuhan

~ ada hijab/batasan dalam pergaulan

~ tidak melunakkan suara

Selagi pelajar boleh menepati 5 perkara yg disebutkan, maka bercintalah.

Semoga tidak disalahinterpretasi oleh muslimin muslimat yg lain. Hal ini cuma pendapat beliau. =)

How much I miss Puncak Alam

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته 

كيف حالك؟ 

Puncak Alam is one of the calmest and prettiest place I have ever been. =) I had my generous aunts staying nearby me so I was like the luckiest student ever, having the driving facility, having lunch outside the campus with my aunt, and having awesome weekends at their homes. =) 

What is so famous at UiTM Puncak Alam is the death stair cases. I have never counted but I was told there were 256 sub-stairs*do we call it substair?? I dont know, it's the each one*... So, each and every student has to climb down the stairs to get from the hostels to the lecture halls and climb up the stairs to get from the lecture halls to their hostels. Nightmare right?? Or, another option is, you can use the Rapid bus , paying RM 1 per trip, going down n up (one way).. The university bus was useless. They never stopped. So everybody just stayed the whole day downstairs to save money and energy. Another thing is when everybody plans to go to pasar malam on Wednesday, then u'll see a packed-sardine like rapid bus. You will have to wait for the bus down the hill on this to easily get on the bus, because there are pple waiting for the bus on the hill, where it had to U-turn n pick the other down the hill again on the other side. Sounds compilcated huhh... Since Puncak Alam's road are pretty curvy, far n hilly, most of the pple preferred bus rather than to walk. It takes a week to walk at least. LOL. Hyperbola again. 

Other than having those (shall i say benefits),  I love UiTM so much for the cushy cushions in the lecture halls and having the lamps at the last row not switched on, providing the best environment for us to take naps. Having everyone from the course learning from the same lecturers, and having crazy minded youths in the same hall made everything be perfect. Everybody had their own crazy roles every time we had assignments and tests, when some students prefer to watch Korean movies till morning rather than studying at night, or even watch football (Engineering students just love football, both girls and boys) till morning, or to sit in the last row of the lecture hall to copy assignments or lab reports during the lectures, or even to have serious naps (YES i meant SERIOUS) in the bright lecture hall. 

And then when it comes to the season where everybody gets our incentives, everybody just 'ran' to the "luxurious" restaurant (it was the one n only Pendeta) and indulge themselves with expensive food, or some just goes to Shah Alam and buys new cell phones what ever you call it. =) And then everybody just showed off what ever they have bought for theselves. It's just hilarious to recall everything. 

Another thing is that the hostels for Engineering students, for the girls la, there were about 8 girls per room having 4 rooms per floor and 4 floors (maybe 5) out of 7 (ke 9 ntah) equipped making the Engineering students 8x4x5=160 at most. =) Engineer girls are just so very tiny part of the hostel making us so close together. And, having all muslims in the hostel made us just wander around the place freely like gas molecules. =D hyperbola k. 

And too, I had crazy classmates who came from all over Malaysia. Pahangites, Penangites, Kedahans, Terengganunians, Kelantanese, Sabahans, Johorians and  Selangorians. They were all just awesome. Having nightmare courses such as programming made us so good together. Eventhough we have different backgrounds and speak different Malay languages, we all have the one value-unity. We just help each other eventhough we just knew each other for a year. And my best friends, Fatihah and Syafikha. They were real friends. =) I can't forget their craziness and stupidity (not being rude yea, we were crazy n stupid during the year) through out the year. =) Ouh. and another best friend is Din. My cousins' cousin frim Kelantan. we just exchange exam questions, tutorial answers and even assignments. Whenever he had class till night or he wanted to puasa the next day, i'll just help him buy nasik, xnk pedas2. choosy! He's now studying in Johor anyways. So far. I'm here in the north and him in the South. Bye2 Din... hahaha~ and yeah, he is not my special friend, he already has his 'soul friend', not yet mate yea, belum nikah but insyaaAllah will do in the future... I'll pray 4 u n Izma ye din.. ;) And my roommate, Hidayah is my crazy room-friend. We just shout through the window when we felt pressured (fyi, there is a cafe *I call it the colosseum because of it's shape* infront of our room, we were on the 3rd floor), and watch Korean movies till morning having the lights not switched on because we watched since the day. Ayo. Then, when we were hungry or it Athan-ed, then only we realized ourselves never moved from our lappy. Awesome dayah!

Ouh and last but not least, the view was the awesomest thing ever. I can see the view of a munawwarah-ed city from a hill (because the campus is on the hill). And every morning, u wake up seeing the fog in between the hills, the trees and even the buildings. Ya Allah! Subhanallah. His creations are the best. 

I know I did not list down everything, of course there were numerous memories I had there, but those I listed were among the best. =) Wallahu'alam. And how much I miss Puncak Alam??? Its just unexplainable n uncountable and un-everything-able. The pple, the food, the lecturers, the lecture halls, the classmates, the friends, the views, the scenery, the jln bengkang-bengkok... in short, everything! Ouh, I forget, N Mr Sahol talks everyday in the lift. So everybody has to listen n watch him repeating the same thing in the lift everyday in order to reach their classes n lecture halls. =) LONG LIVE PUNCAK ALAM. <3 an kisses... 

nahhh~ a nice pearl-shining heels... =) 

Source : Facebook 

Nightmares or Dreams

Bismillahi arrahmaan arrahiim.. 

Assalamualaikum...

I am not sure whether I am talking about this one dream, is a nightmare or it should be something really meaningful in my life. annd if u notice I am posting this entry at 2 am in the morning. o.O . Can't sleep. Somehow, I came across some hadeeth from Islam in Action wordpress, where it says

Sayidinah Qatada reports that Rasulullah (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) said:  Good dreams are from Allah and the evil dreams are from satan. If one sees a dream which one does not like, one should spit on one’s left side and seek the refuge of Allah from the satan; (spitting 3 times means to resemble the gesture of spitting, not actual splitting with a mouthful of saliva. Such a gesture will help that) it (the dream) will not do one any harm, and one should not disclose it to anyone and if one sees a good dream one should feel pleased but should not disclose it to anyone but whom one loves.(In other words, disclose it only to people that are pious, honorable, etc.)

Muslim: Book 29, Number 5618

or

Sayidinah Jabir (radiAllaahu anh) reported that Rasulullah(sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) said: If anyone sees a dream which he does not like, he should spit on his left side. (Resemble the gesture of spitting, not actual splitting with a mouthful of saliva.)

Muslim: Book 29, Number 5620

or 

Sayidinah Abu Huraira reported that Rasulullah (sallallaahu alayhi wa sallam) said: When the time of Qiyamah gets closer, a believer’s dream can hardly be false. And the truest vision will be of one who is himself the most truthful in speech, for the dream of a Muslim is the forty-fifth part of Prophecy, and dreams are of three types: one good dream which is a sort of good tidings from Allah; the evil dream which causes pain is from the satan; and the third one is a suggestion of one’s own mind; so if any one of you sees a dream which he does not like he should stand tip and offer prayer and he should not relate it to people, and he said: I would love to see fetters, but I dislike wearing of necklace, for the fetters is (an indication of) one’s steadfastness in religion. The narrator said: I do not know whether this is a part of the hadith or the words of Ibn Sirin.

Muslim: Book 29, Number 5621

I dont really know whether my dream is a good dream which is a sort of good tidings from Allah or an evil dream which causes pain is from the satan or is a suggestion of my mind. And if we think that our dream are nightmares, we better not tell people abt the dream but to our close ones. 

I always have my dreams as if it happened and I confirmed myself about it in my dream, double or 3 times, but then finding myself in reality again. =) Sometimes wishing everything should have happened and sometimes wishing the dream shouldn't happen. Istighfar. =) 

Ouh and this a heel i like.. Just like the shine it reflects. =) Of course, I'm a diamond right =) Facebook source.